On a profound journey to Myself and Beyond

Why am I here and what am I doing here?

I believe it’s not by chance or luck where I am at and about in my life.

Every step is necessary, every part of the journey is there to teach me. 

Every place - every time

every human being - every connection and

every challenge - every pain.

Human beings - we are not alone, we are meant to live 

in constant exchange with each other, 

no learning, no development, no growth without relationships -

to parents, siblings, comrades, strangers, loved ones.

Seeing myself through diverse mirrors - reflecting the diversity of my Selves, 

all these mirrors just out there to be looked at.

If we decide to look at and to connect with the vastness of humanity 

around us, in this universe, 

our awareness grows and our consciousness expands.

It took me long to understand that!

When I finally did, I started seeing sides of me that were not all 

beautiful brave courageous and kind. 

I felt and still feel shame thinking of my arrogance, my selfishness, 

my overconfidence, my envy, my feeling of superiority, 

my anger, my judgemental thoughts - first step.

Radical acceptance - next step.

Accepting myself, every part of me. 

It is as it is. Or it is what it is. 

I am who I am.

With all the beautiful and not so beautiful parts.

Not easy as it sounds to me, not the first time, not now

but the mere thought brings relief.

Relief of - I don’t need to be a different me, 

I don’t need to change. 

I just can be Me. 

But who am I?

Once I started to become more and more aware of myself, 

I saw that there is so much, hidden and ready to be unveiled, of Me.

Why? - you might ask. 

Where are you heading towards?

I believe I am on my journey to living my Purpose, my Peace.

On that journey my stepping stones are 

Love and Wholeness

Step by Step.

Wholeness - a big boulder of a word!

And what is my life in Tanzania teaching me about it?

It helps me to study the human condition. 

How similar and different we are at the same time.

How systems shape us.

How mindsets limit us.

How trauma and conditioning is in all of us.

How we all have that inner child that just wants to be hold, heard and loved.

How we all search for wholeness and peace.

Does wholeness only describe the entireness of my Individual Self?

 Or does a wholeness of the universe exist? 

(After listening to the Telepathy Tapes  - a podcast in which the telepathic 

communication between families and their autistic members is described fascinatingly

- revealing what human beings are essentially capable of! 

I know I am just at the beginning of this journey of finding answers within me and the 

universe.)

There is something else I wanted to share,

I am super grateful, I have gotten many many insights over the last year. 

I have been and am part of an extensive coaching programme 

which let me dive into a new world. 

Emerging as a new Me 

but essentially as a peeled Me - 

being able to fully loving and living who I am.

As I said before this is just the beginning.

Its a constant cycle of diving and emerging, 

fully uncovering my Essential Self and 

to finally living from my Essential Self - 

that's what Inner Peace means to me!

One of the many revelations I have had on this journey was 

that understanding myself 

is a crucial step 

to understanding others.

Leadership starts with Myself.

And finding my own path to transformation - as much as it sounds like a cliche - 

gives me the vision to see the transformation in others.

More to be unveiled soon 

Love & Peace